Must it always be a parade of boons
and hope-stained floats?
Smile girl, we say
to our broken sentences
throwing candy to keep us clutching
What if from time to time
we allow our words to be the sacred
wounds they point to
not mere scar tissue
but real raw and open
to the risk of infection
by terrible truths
I don’t know how to do it
but this poem wants to let it be
a slow pilgrimage of laments
until the Earth
in us has felt heard
until the River in us
has felt beflowed
until we’ve heard the iceberg
in us mourn being hit
by the unwieldy ship of us
now too difficult to carry
until we’ve felt the village
in us aching from being burnt
over and over and over
over and over…
yet even I, a talented grief-monger
can’t seem to sustain such a march
can’t open wide enough
can’t get low enough on the ground
even if each inch etches something holy
stitching together the garment
that we so long to wear
yet worry if we’re worthy of its wholeness
Language must do better than this, I think,
if Life is to be lured back
Perhaps by speaking devout words with each step.
PHOTO: Madrone Tree on ancestral Mattole land